"Let your voice go, let it pierce through your soul."
Lyrics from Sing To The Mountain by Elephant Revival
Five years ago, I was in the midst of a very dark and scary time in my life. Unexplained health issues, countless trips to the emergency room, numerous doctor appointments, counseling appointments, fatigue, panic, anxiety, depression, fear, doubt, and a ton of worry.
Was I dying? Who was I and what was happening to me? What was WRONG with me?
Doctors told me I was perfectly fine. It was all in my head. Take some anxiety and depression medication. Relax. Stop being so stressed out.
I intuitively knew that something was off. Something was changing.
Up until this time, I had been active and healthy and was absolutely loving being a mother to my sweet two-year old daughter.
I began frantically searching for a diagnosis that would explain my unusual but very real symptoms which I was positively certain would bring me a sense of immediate relief. I sought out specialty doctors, spent countless hours on Google, and became obsessed with figuring out what was wrong with me.
I became ADDICTED to seeking answers.
I was told I had fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, mercury toxicity, mental illness, autoimmune disease, thyroid disease, Lyme disease, and the list could go on.
And you know what? Those "labels" did absolutely nothing to improve my sense of well-being. In fact, I felt worse! Every time my friends and family would ask how I was doing I would cringe at the thought of giving them an update. I could feel my energy draining by the toxicity of the story I was telling. It didn't feel good. It felt heavy. I felt drained.
I was becoming a victim of my very own labels. I was giving away my power to my story.
Unknowingly, I was negatively energizing my story which in turn was adversely impacting my well-being and blocking my innate healing abilities. I was a prisoner to my wounds and circumstances. My addiction to seeking labels was blocking me from seeing the answers which were smack dab in front of me. My story was not coming from a place of empowerment but from a place of being a victim.
I was avoiding my core wounds. In essence, I was avoiding my Truth and inner wisdom.
With the guidance of many wonderful and supportive souls and healers I began the journey of facing the internal storm and healing deep within. Instead of dwelling on what I perceived to be wrong, I began focusing on what was right I stopped resisting my circumstances. I stopped resisting my very own well-being. I began to let go of the parts of my story that were no longer serving my highest good. I began to tap into the energy and vibration of my Being. I was exploring my Truths and beliefs.
I consciously stopped telling my story from a place of being a victim.
I began telling my story from a place of sovereignty and empowerment.
By feeling into my painful emotions and circumstances instead of fighting them I began to set my soul free. Instead of cursing my wounds and challenges I began to bless them and give thanks to them. I surrendered and opened to the gifts they were bringing into my life.
Today, I can look back and observe how catalyzing my challenges and experiences were in putting me on a path of deep healing and inner transformation. I see the blessings. I would not be on the path I am today if I hadn't said yes to experiencing my hardships from a place of sovereignty and empowerment.
I chose not to be a victim.
I love knowing that my story serves to assist others who may be experiencing similar hardships. I love knowing that I deliberately chose to be here for a very specific purpose and my life experiences and challenges catapulted me in the exact direction I needed to be at exactly the right time.
I love knowing that I chose to awaken.
I now choose to tell my continued story of healing from a platform of empowerment, deep self-love, compassion, and inner peace. By doing so, I hope to inspire others to stop frantically seeking outward and become aware of the answers within and the blessings that are staring them in the face.
How has your story, challenges, and discomfort served you in becoming who you are today? How have you shifted and evolved? What lessons came as a result of your challenges? What have those lessons taught you? What is the blessing of your story? How would it feel to tell your story from a place of empowerment versus that of a victim? What would that do for your well-being?
Perhaps your story is not serving a purpose for your highest good. Ask yourself, what purpose is my story serving myself and others? Is it raising my vibration or lowering it? Do I feel a need to hang onto it? Is it time to let it go?
As always, I welcome your comments.
Much peace to you.
Please visit my website www.soulinspiredjourney.com if you feel called to explore more of what I am doing to assist people in becoming more aligned with their inherit well-being and inner guidance.
Disclaimer and credit: This article is not meant to discourage you from searching for answers on your journey. It is meant to inspire your to take a good honest look at the inherit wisdom and answers you hold within and to help you determine the impact your story is having on your overall well-being.
A huge Thank You to the amazing Evelyn Apostolou for her wisdom, teachings, and genuine compassion which served to inspired me in writing this article. A huge Thank You to my amazing husband and daughter who continue to support me and stand by my side, holding space for me to step into my authentic power.